2012!

Holy cow! It has been awhile since I've posted anything, so I thought I would do an update (even though you all probably know what's going on in our lives because of Facebook..)! It has been quite a year in the Wilcox home.. In February, we spent some time with my family in Utah... I love family time! In April, went went to Utah for my best friend's wedding! Katie was such a beautiful bride! We celebrated our 2 year anniversary in May! We kept the celebrations simple, because we wanted to go to an Eagles game as our gift to each other. We spent a weekend in Newport with Zach's family in May! Yay for going to the beach! In June, we went to Orlando with my family! We went to Disney World, both Universal Studios park, Cocoa Beach, and we did a session at the Orlando Temple! Zach isn't a fan of the humidity there, but I looooved it! :) In July, it was the traditional Wilcox trip to Newport! Unfortunately, we were only able to stay for an extended weekend, while everybody else was there for a week.. While we were there, I went on a 5 mile run! That's the furthest I have ever ran! Yeah, I know for some of you that sounds like nothing, but for me, it's kind of a big deal! Haha We were able to go to Utah for Labor Day weekend! I take every chance I can to visit with my family! Went went the the Eagles vs Cardinals football game in September! Even though the Eagles didn't play well, we still had a ton of fun! In October, we went to Disneyland with Zach's family! Yeah, we kind of have a Disney park obsession! Now for the serious stuff... Mid September we found out I was pregnant! After my miscarriage last year, and the nurse getting on my case about not getting a blood test (I lost the baby pretty early, but I didn't know I should have gotten a blood test), I called my new dr and set up an appointment right away to get a blood test. Everything came back great, so they set up an ultrasound appointment. Well, the day before our ultrasound, Zach lost his job.. That threw a little wrench in our plans! Anyways, we went to the ultrasound we had no idea how far along I was, because my previous cycle was 43 days long & I could only guess about when I ovulated. Well, I wasn't too far along, because all we were able to see with the ultrasound was the sac. It looked like I had a bubble in my stomach. I then had to get 2 hcg tests to make sure my levels were going up. The first test I was at 14000, and at the second test I should have been about 30000, but I was at 20000. They then wanted my to get another ultrasound. At that ultrasound, we were able to see our little baby and hear the heartbeat! We were told everything was great! Shortly after this, I started to get morning sickness. Bananas and apples became my enemy, which sucked because I ate them almost every day. Well, 5 days after my last ultrasound, I had another appointment with my dr. This one was for the pap. During the appointment, she offered to listen to the heartbeat, if I wanted that reassurance, which I did. She left to get the gear to hear it, but saw that the ultrasound machine was available, so she decided to use that instead. Well, after a bit of searching, it was discovered that our little baby's heart had stopped beating. I was in shock. She then sat me down to talk about it & my options.. Up to this point I had no spotting or cramping. She said my cervix was pretty closed, and she didn't think I would miscarry on my own. We had plans to go to Disneyland that weekend. She didn't want me to miss the trip, because she thought it would be good to go and have fun.. So I set up an appointment on the following Monday. She didn't want to do a dnc, so instead we used the pills to jump start the miscarriage. For those of you that don't know about these special pills, what they do is place them in your cervix and as they are absorbed into your body, you began to cramp & then miscarry. The process for me took 3 days. I started cramping almost right away, and that night I had nonstop intense pain for a little over 3 hours.. I'm pretty sure Zach was worried that I was going to die. It wasn't a pleasant experience. Over the next few days I would get sharp pains if I moved too much or too fast. It wasn't until Thursday afternoon that I was able to get the last little bit out. Even though this was only my second miscarriage, and my first with my current dr, she wanted to test me to see if there is anything genetically that is causing the issues. Last week we met with her to hear the results. I had one test come back positive for blood clotting, and she is putting me on progesterone. So, what I have to do is take a baby aspirin every day to help thin out my blood, then a week after I ovulate, I start taking progesterone. I have to use the ovulation kits in order to track my ovulation, then I take progesterone until I either have my period or I'm 10 weeks pregnant. If I have my period, I have to stop taking it until after I ovulate, otherwise it could cause me to not ovulate. But that's too simple. So I'm going to throw a little wrench in it. I'm allergic to Advil. So, I'm currently taking the baby aspirin every day to see if I have an allergic reaction. Through the past few months and going through the 2 most difficult trials that we have had, I have learned so much! I'm so grateful for all of the love and support that friends and family have shown us. I'm super grateful for Amber and for her words of comfort about going through the blood clotting stuff & making sure I'm taken care of & had my baby aspirin! My love for Zach has grown so much more through all of this, even though I didn't think I could love him any more than I already did. I love that even with life falling apart all around us, we still were able to laugh and have fun with one another. He is my perfect man, my dream come true! I know one day we will have a family, but for now, I will continue to enjoy my one on one time with Zach! We didn't choose to share our story because we wanted people to feel bad for us, but because people keep asking about our baby plans & because I know many of you wanted an update about my results & what we are going to be doing going forward. Oh, and I'm sorry this was such a long post, haha!